Sunday, February 28, 2010

The Recent Past


there have been a few women during the past that have had a profound effect on my life, better or for worse. some have helped me with their love and wisdom. others, have hindered my progress as a person but ultimately led me towards furthering my strength and character.

summer 2009: my lowest point and my highest times. the season came to me with inevitable and necessary change and ended with a chance encounter that changed my negative cynical outlook.

the last days of Canada were cherished and lessons were learned. don't be such a judgmental prick, "some people only hear the shit", and "quit being so hard on others, we are all just doing our own thing" were all important to take with me in my next stage in personal development.

there is less judgment but I still hear the shit; give me more time. I am improving and learning not to be as critical and self-critical but I do have lapses.

this week I had contact with one of the profound women. We'll see what happens.

Starting Point


nine months ago things happened, big things. nine months ago began the transitional period of my life which seems to follow seven year cycles. my new cycle has begun but for the last 3/4 of a year, I was emotionally idle. things, for me, have all ways taken a while to process when it comes to activities involving the heart or penis. add in large amounts of things that rhyme with 'ooze', and then you have my psychological of emotional development over the course of 9 months.


now, what to do......